Looking for a Job Opportunity

 

12/Sep/2022

    Sometimes I think the universe is going against me, I wonder: where was that little bit of luck that nothing goes right for me? The hopes that something will turn out well win me over and I wait for that good news, I am filled with positivism and certainty that I am worthy of what I am trying to achieve and that it will come, but that good news does not come but a negative. It is where I start to think and compare myself with those friends who have achieved success in their lives and I ask myself: how long will it take to reach me?

    I get discouraged, I cry until I can't, in the midst of my despair and disappointment I ask God to give me strength to continue and know how to wait for my moment.

 

13/Sep/2022

    I wake up early, but stay in bed waiting for my cell phone to ring with a call or work email. Hours go by and nobody calls, I don't receive emails, I fall asleep and dream that they call me from a job or that I receive that long-awaited email saying that I was selected. I wake up, but nothing like that happens.

    I sit on the computer, as I do every day during these 13 days of the month, I apply for jobs, I look for people who can write and ask, but nobody answers. My desperation grows more every day, although I try to hide it, my desire to return to my country increases and leave everything, but I cry, I ask God for strength and I start again.

    I was walking full of rage and impotence, wanting to shout in the streets is nobody going to give me a job? I was thinking of making a sign that said “I'm looking for work” and putting myself in the middle of the street with it. I sat in the park, I saw people pass by with IDs, purses or backpacks, you could tell they were coming from work and I thought about asking them: where do you work, are there vacancies for me?

14/Sep/2022

    I got up and took the bus with Luis, we arrived at his work and just by saying that I was going to an interview at a Subway my spirits lowered. Luis told me to wait for the time of the interview at work because it was very cold outside, but I didn't last even ten minutes to go out.

    I walked to the offices of the job I had been interviewed about a few days ago and still had no answer. It's a good position for me, I feel like I fit in there and it would be a great opportunity. I knock and the receptionist opens the door, very friendly, I ask him a few questions in English and he tells me to keep waiting, they will surely answer my email. I go out and I stay outside thinking "because I don't think I'm capable of working in a place where only English is spoken if I can communicate"

    I follow my destiny to my interview on the subway, while I was walking I felt sorrow in my soul, I saw people sitting in suits drinking coffee and I thought about sitting down with them and telling them that I was looking for a job opportunity, they looked like business owners because of their suits. Look at the lawyers of all the offices and businesses that passed by in search of that opportunity. I was checking my phone for some important work email, but nothing like that was happening.

    I felt an immense desire to cry, but I remembered that in addition to not having the job that I wanted, my soul and heart felt that way because on a day like today my brother Ynoel, who died ten years ago due to a traffic accident, was turning 28 years.

    Take a deep breath and continue on my way to the interview for a job that I don't like and that I don't know if they will give me either, but it is what it is.

    The day is not so bad. I had the interview, it went well. I continued to walk around the entire center for about two hours, I did not find any new job advertisements. I saw people with their work cards and wished I could ask them where they worked and if there were openings for me. It sounds crazy, but I really need to find a job, and not just any job, one where I feel comfortable and can pursue my career. The desire to shout at the top of my lungs that I was looking for a job and just wanted an opportunity increases every day.

    At the end of my tour of the center, I decided to go to the BBC, I think the receptionist attended me and told me an interesting fact, that if I didn't come to ask even knowing that on their page there were no vacancies in this town, but it never hurts to visit the area and be curious. I take a breath, commend myself to God and decide to go home and apply for the first job I see on the BBC page that matches my profile.

23/Sep/2022

    The days continue to pass, I only receive emails that I have not been selected for the position, but every day I apply to all the vacancies that I find on the internet, it is the routine of my days, I only have to wait for one of those applications to be the job opportunity I'm looking for.